My lovely Angel,
When it was just the time, I was looking forward to meet you, circumstances and situations pushed me to a corner and forced me to change my decision. It has been my wish to hold you in my hands. To sing you a lullaby. To tell you beautiful stories. To glance your smiling face while you sleep. To touch and feel your smooth tender skin. To cuddle you. To show you vivid hues of the rainbows and butterflies. To dance with you in the rains. To teach you the beauty of Saptaswaras. To swim with you in the gigantic rivers. To take you to the deep valleys. To experiment finger painting with your tiny fingers. To play with you in the lush grasses. To spread happiness through you.
But child, off late I have realised that this world I am currently living doesn’t deserve you. This world is not looking forward for Sunshines like you. Humans are no more intellectual animals. Newton’s third law works in the evolution process too I guess. Evolution happened till nature created the most efficient and intellectual animal called human. Now, the opposite will take place. If the earlier is a progressive, the later is supposed to be a regressive. The times we are living in hint that retrogression process has already kicked off. And soon we will witness this phenomenon. Man< Inhuman< Imbecile< Beast< Wild Beast. Remarkable numbers of individuals have already reached second/third stage of devolution process. Gradually, due to stress, lack of resources and inflated costs humans will start losing morals, ethics, humility and behave like morons, wild beasts.
The moment you are out from the womb, you will be named. You will give a religion, caste, region and race. This is all without your consent. You will be judged. They will comment on your colour, gender, body, disabilities, if any. And this will continue till your lifetime. You will be conditioned to believe in the Philosophies, Culture that is being followed by people around you. They will convince you that they are right and the same has been written and documented in 4000 year old scriptures. What they don’t tell you is how conveniently these scriptures can be modified.
People are losing their morals, values, ethics. The place outside the womb is not safe anymore. There is no protection for girls in their homes, schools, workplaces and temples. For some men, it doesn’t matter if the person is a month’s baby, toddler, teenager, adult or old. Their desperation is blindfolding them to human values. All they need is a hole. These beasts don’t understand that you are a made of flesh, bones and heart. Your genitals will be treated as their toys and they will pounce on you like wild animals. Anywhere, anyplace, anytime, any female.
People are being exploited. It is the greediness and power that is running the world and not love and compassion. Everything is commercial and is linked to money. Education, healthcare, food, shelter and natural resources are a business. Our hearts are filled with rage, jealousy and malicious intents. We look for an opportunity to pull down our enemies. We not only pollute our nature but pollute minds of people we interact with. We make comments on unreasonable capitalistic exploitations. But, we still want to be part of the same progress. We are in that vulnerable state that we can’t make choices as per our ideologies. In the current scenario, values, principles, ideologies, ethics are confined to books. They fail miserably when put in practice.
We are bloody hypocrites. We are chameleons changing colours. Many countries in the world propagate peace and harmony. But, all of them are slyly working on building their nuclear power. We raise our voices for equality and justice. But, we don’t stand for justice if the mistake is committed by a person from our family or community. We share quotes and say that money can’t buy happiness. Yet, we spend most of our day in offices for mere increments. Most of us work for money and not out of passion. We miss sunrises, sunsets, and deep breaths. We say families are important. But, we aren’t available with our families during the difficult times. We say we want to live in communal harmony. But, we refuse to even touch some people just because they belong to minor caste or tribal groups.
We will only appreciate you if perform as per society standards. So, you will be under huge pressure to walk, read, earn, marry, bear kids, buy house, car and behave as defined by the society. We will look down upon you if you fail at any of these. In any case, if you raise your voice against the culture, society and injustice happening around, you will be called names. Politicians, law, rules and regulations will not support and rescue you. Instead, we will contribute to the burning fire for our selfish benefits. Your image will be tarnished. You will not be respected. You will be victimized. We will fail you. As a family. As a community. As a society. As a nation. As a world. As humans.
Most of us are depressed. We feel alone. We are battling our fears and insecurities in our minds every single minute. We are made fell worthless. We are killing ourselves to live up to this illusionary world. To make our livelihood in this cruelty. To breathe in this suffocation. True happiness has become expensive.
Therefore, my dear, I think this world is not a place to live in for you. Because, you are precious to me. You are not just blood and flesh. You carry my heart and soul. I can’t fathom the thought that you will be exploited and forced to undergo all the filthy shit we have created. I know I am sounding pessimistic and hopeless. I know people will again judge me when I declare are my decision. I know I should have been more considerate. But Pearl, I don’t want you to be disappointed, dejected, vulnerable and exploited, for, you are my rare precious pristine Pearl. This world is dangerous and life here is treacherous. I am hopeless about this place becoming any better. And I don’t give this fucking world any opportunity to make you murky inside and out. Hope you will forgive me for snatching away your birth right.